Wednesday, August 27, 2014

I'm With the Band Pt. 1

In July, I revealed that I decided to have lap band surgery. I've jumped through all the necessary hoops and finally got a surgery date - October 8th. So for the next 6 weeks, I'm going to share a bit about the various parts of the surgery. Well, all the "before" stuff anyway.

Part 1: The Basics

1. What is lap band surgery?

Lap Band is the brand name of an Adjustable Gastric Band, but is commonly used to describe the procedure (much like people refer to tissues as Kleenex regardless of brand).  A silicone band is placed around the stomach and then filled with saline to reduce the size of the stomach. Read more about it here

2. Why did you choose lap band surgery?

There are several answers to this question...

I have always had issues with food. I'm an emotional eater, but my main issue is that I'm a volume eater. I remember being younger and having my mom's friend laugh because I could eat an entire Stouffer's Lasagna by myself. The high school boys that worked at the local Subway thought it was amazing that my junior high self could eat an entire meatball sub. I never thought it was weird that I could eat so much and it never really occurred to me that it was a bad thing until I got older. After years of overeating, I've broken the natural system in my body that tells me when to stop. I have no idea what it means to be "full" until I'm uncomfortably stuffed. 

I've tried losing weight many other ways and have been successful, only to gain the weight (plus more!) back soon after. I don't want to spend the rest of my life losing the same 15-30 lbs over and over again just to regain it. 

I have a lot of weight to lose. If  I had 25, 30 or even 50 lbs to lose, my thought process may be different. But I have so much weight to lose (100.7 lbs to be exact) that it really seems impossible and I get discouraged before even starting.  

I know what it takes to lose weight. But I tend to forget that I'm dieting until after I've 'screwed' up. I need constant accountability.

So why did I choose Lap Band over other types of weight loss surgery? Tune in next week to find out!
(Have questions about the procedure? My decision? My sanity?? Leave them in the comments or email me! I'd love to answer them!) 

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Hey! It's Okay Tuesday!

It's Okay to...

Yes. Yes, she can. 

  • think my son was right. My kids go back to school tomorrow. Riley predicts I'll do a happy dance, then sit down to enjoy my cup of coffee and say, "Man, I really miss the kids." 
  • hope that Brenna's first tooth waits until I can make it to the bank before it falls out! This tooth fairy has no cash on her! (Actually, Brenna told me today she prefers chocolate over cash. She's writing the tooth fairy to inform her.) 
  • worry that I'm making the wrong decision with my education. I'm hearing of numerous special education teachers in the area that have resigned this summer. While I like the idea of job openings, it worries me - is there something about this field I should know?
  • be glad Debra Messing will be back on tv this fall. I really like her! But her last show (something broadway-ish?) wasn't great. Now if we can just get Amy Brenneman away from that confusing show "The Leftovers". 
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Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Hey! It's Okay Tuesday!

It's Okay to...

  • love books about brave, mischievous girls. Ramona will always have a special place in my heart, but I think my new favorite is Clementine
  • be so ready for the kids to go back to school. This fall will be crazy busy. But at least they won't be able to fight with each other all day! 
  • to really hope that this is the year I figure out how to get up earlier than the rest of my family. So many benefits to little desire to leave my warm bed in the morning!
  • be nervous/excited about my meeting with the nutritionist tomorrow. It's my last meeting pre-surgery. They'll submit it to insurance and schedule me soon. I wanted to write so much more about this journey before now, but it's gone so fast! Maybe now that the kids are going back I can sit and write more. 
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Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Hey! It's Okay Tuesday!

It's Okay to...

Pretty sure this is how I will look when I finally finish my degree...

  • thinking cleaning is dangerous. I mopped our dining room and kitchen yesterday. It was so slick that I nearly wiped out when I went walking through later. Sticky floors save lives! 
  • leave my daughter in her bed, awake, for nearly an hour. Grace is almost four. We have shown her time and time again how to get out of her bed by herself. She CAN do it. But its much easier to look at mom and say sweetly, "Get down please!". Sorry sweetheart. From now on, if you want out of bed, you gotta do it yourself. (Her door was open and I could see her the entire time. She played with her toys until she finally decided she'd had enough and slid out of her bed.)
  • have learned a lot from my Children's Literature class, but be so thankful it's over! I haven't worked this hard on something in a very long time. Learn from me kids - stay in school! It's harder when you're old!!
  • have never seen someone with a sunburned chin until my fair-skinned, red head came in from 3 hours in the pool this afternoon. Thankfully she didn't burn anywhere else except on her face! But it's so odd to see her chin all red! 
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Thursday, July 17, 2014

Songs My Kids Mess Up

Pie hole! Pie hole! It's off to work we go!

We listen to a lot of music in our house. Usually my kids have no idea what the lyrics really are and it can be HILARIOUS to listen to what they are actually singing. Here are a few examples...

"Lately I've been laughing Christmas eve....lately I've been laughing really hard...."  Counting Stars By Brenna
(Real lyrics are "Lately I've been, I've been losing sleep....But, baby I've been, I've been praying hard..."

"Pie hole! Pie hole!" Hi Ho (from Snow White) by Gracie
(Real lyrics are, of course, "Hi ho! Hi ho!")

"I don't care what you're going to do!" Let it Go by Gracie
(Should be "I don't care what they're going to say")

"I got one last prom production. I got one last prom production." Problem by Riley
(Real lyrics "I got one less problem without ya. I got one less problem without ya.")

What song lyrics have your kids (or YOU) misheard?

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Hey! It's Okay Tuesday!

It's Okay to...

- Admit that you need help.
- Know that when you face your issues, strength can take the place of shame.
- Let the cat out of the bag....:)

In December, I decided to do something serious about my health and in February I started the process of having lap-band surgery. It isn't scheduled yet, but if all goes as planned I should have surgery by the end of August.

I hadn't told anyone for the longest time because I was ashamed. I know people will talk, I know people will think it's the easy way out, I know people will judge. But I realized I can't control what others may say. But I can share my story.

It really isn't anyone else's business - it's my body. But I don't want to lose weight and have people believe I finally got my shizz together and conquered this diet/exercise thing on my own. It felt very dishonest.

So I'd like to put it out there. I'm horrible at blogging, but hopefully I can document this huge life change well!

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Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Hey! It's Okay Tuesday!

It's Okay to...

Oh? Is it humid? I couldn't tell!
  • have an afro. I let my hair get pretty long, but it took SO LONG to dry. So for the summer I got it chopped off. It's the same style I've loved in the past, but the combination of new styling products and extremely humid weather makes my curls shrink up to 'fro-levels. It's not so pretty. 
  • feel like the poster child for both why you should finish college when you are young and why you should wait. School is SO MUCH easier when you don't have other major responsibilities - like kids that expect you to feed them regularly. But I would have never imagined myself being passionate about Special Education even just five years ago. Just proof that sometimes "regrets" are just God telling you there is something better around the corner.
  • be in the middle of three different books and have no desire to finish any of them. I'm doing a lot of reading for a Children's Literature class, so I'm blaming that. 
  • LOVE my Children's Literature class. It takes a lot of work! But kid's books are ah-ma-zing. I've at least tripled my Amazon Wish List. 
  • be super tired. I've been staying up late working on school and Grace seems to think 5 AM is a perfect time to start the day. It's not. It's a horrible time to start the day. But since she rules the roost around here...
Good night ya'll! 

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