On This Day in 2010

I really love Facebook's new feature that shows you what your status was the year before. On this day in 2010, my status was, "heading to the specialist TODAY instead of tomorrow. Expecting nothing but good news! (Prayers appreciated!)"

The day before this we had gotten an MRI to look at why our baby's ventricles were enlarged. We were told that it was probably a developmental issue. The tubing in her brain hadn't gotten big enough and everything would fix itself. And so that is what we expected. Jeff would take off of work, we would hear our baby is perfectly normal then have a great dinner at Chick-fil-A.

But it didn't turn out that way.

Instead we were ushered into a conference room. The doctor sat us down and handed us some papers. He started saying things like "severe brain bleed" and "blockage from blot clot" and I just kept thinking, "You've got the wrong people. That's not us. You are suppose to say it's perfectly fine."

 The doctor told us there was nothing they could do until she was born, which needed to be as soon as possible. We went from having a perfectly normal baby around October 10th to having a baby with brain issues by c-section on September 18th. I was excited to get to meet Grace early. But mainly I was just scared. Jeff and I were both scared. And I remember sitting at Chick-fil-A and crying because this was all just too big for me.

There were two songs that brought me - and still bring me - a lot of comfort during those days. Whenever I hear these songs it takes me right back to that doctor's office, to being in my car running last minute errands before her arrival, to the restless night before her birth.

The first is "Your Hands" by JJ Heller.


The second is "No Matter What" by Kerrie Roberts


And of course this story has a happy ending. A very happy, squishy, giggly ending. More on that later...
What songs bring you comfort?