For a while, I've felt 'lost' when it came to my faith. It wasn't a question of if God was there - I knew he was. But I wasn't sure he was there for me. To put it in elementary school terms, I felt (and still feel to a certain extent) that God had a 'club' and I was not a member. Praying, hearing him speak to me, basically having a relationship with God was for other people. I can hear others speaking about giving their cares to God and think, "Why can't I do that? Why am I excluded?" One of my favorite songs is "Be Blessed" by Yolanda Adams. The lyrics, "Cause I spoke to God - I called out your name. And on your behalf I just asked if he would be there for you", baffle me. I want to speak to God. I want to ask him to be there for me and others. It may be the simplest thing, but I can't wrap my head around how to do it. I'm on the outside trying to start a relationship - I just feel like I don't know how.
I just wanted to make a small but somewhat public statement and say I want to re-dedicate my life. I want to find my way back. If you wouldn't mind keeping me in your prayers, I'd appreciate it. :-)
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Hi Bethany!
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to let you know that you will be in my prayers. God is there and waiting for you....you will hear him, just keep seeking Him!
Looks like you are doing really good after delivery.
Brittany
Hi Bethany, it is my privilege to pray for you and your family and I do it often. My prayer is that you will somehow get to the point that you can crawl up on your Father God's lap and lay your head on His shoulder, & let him hug away the owwies. It took me many years to figure how just how much He loves me and wants me to be on a Father-Daughter level with Him. This knowledge will come to you eventually, I promise you. You will find a lot of it in the Psalms. David was a real screwup, and God loved him so much because He loved God with all his heart.It didn' matter what David did, God still loved him and took good care of him. All of us have a lot of David in us and we most certainly matter to our God.
ReplyDeleteHe made no one else quite like you and He knows your heart, what makes you laugh, what makes you sad, and when you just want to be His little princess. Wait and see! He is so worth the wait as you grow in His knowledge and grace. I am excited for you as you seek Him and long to be on a very intimate level with Him!! Love, Brenda
Hi Bethany, me again....I just ordered a great book for you called Captivating. It will help you in your journey in seeking God's heart. I read it a few years back and I have never forgotten how special it made me feel knowing just much God loves me, plain old Brenda...I am SPECIAL to Him!!!
ReplyDeleteWendi's mom group at church are now reading it. She wouldn't read it when I suggested it, but her friends did and oh well, mom doesn't know anything...now she thinks it is a great book!!!
Give it a try and see what you think. I am having it shipped directly to your home for I don't know when I would be up that way...You should get it in about a week or so.
Love and Hugs, Brenda