One thing I've noticed about myself is that I am completely incapable of doing just one thing at a time. I can't remember when this started - maybe I've always been this way. Or maybe it was a habit that was built out of necessity once I started having kids. On a typical day at home there are so many things that require my attention all at once. While feeding Brenna I'll play a game or check e-mail on the computer. While making dinner I'm loading the dishwasher and dancing with Riley. While trying to have a conversation with my husband I'm cooking dinner, feeding Brenna, patrolling Riley, letting the dog out, washing dishes, remembering laundry in the washer....you get the idea. I remember after having Riley that for the first few months of his life, I felt like I could not keep up. So overwhelmed. At that time, there were medical issues wrecking havoc with me and I just couldn't deal. Now, with a full time job, a lively toddler, a demanding newborn, a husband who I don't get to talk to near enough, a house that always seems cluttered and a dog that always finds her way under my feet - I can still feel that overwhelming feeling sometimes. Not nearly to the point it was back then. But still, does a woman ever learn to just stop and breathe?
I'm trying. Working on focusing on the task at hand, then moving on to the next. Trying to unplug (which is hard in our house with my gadget loving husband!). Shutting the radio off on my way to work and just listening to myself. Playing trains with Riley - and actually playing instead of thinking of the dishes/laundry/vaccuming that needs done. Using the time I have while feeding Brenna to meditate/pray, feel grateful, and be very present in those moments with her. They aren't going to last long!
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