The Journey Begins

I've been thinking a lot about this post. How much information do I want to share? How embarrassing will this be? Will people support me or laugh at me? I'm scared and excited.

I'm throwing caution to the wind and laying it all out there. I'm fat. Shocking I know. Thankfully I've never really had 'body issues'. I'm comfortable in my skin and even though after two kids things certainly aren't where they used to be I would still walk outside nekkid and not think twice. But I'm tired. And not just in the literal sense - I'm tired of shopping in the plus size department. I'm tired of things jiggling when I run around with my son. I'm tired of feeling like I'm going to die when I take the stairs at work. I'm tired of thinking that I'm not doing anything to make my short time on this planet the best it can be. 30 is just around the corner - and while that's not old by any means, it's still a milestone. I'd like to be proud of where I am at 30.

I read the blog Zen Habits regularly. Leo always has thoughtful and useful things to say. A few days ago I read this post. These are his suggestions for success in changing behavior:

- Do a 30-day challenge, focusing on just ONE habit.
- Write it out on paper, along with your motivations, obstacles, and strategies for overcoming them.
- Commit fully, in a public way.
- Log your progress.
- Remain publicly accountable — report on your progress each day.
- Have support for when you falter — either in real life or online.
- Reward every little success.
- If you fail, figure out what went wrong, plan for it, and try again.

And so this is my public commitment. I'm fat. I want to change that. I'm going to track the journey on my blog for accountability, documentation (that scrapbooker in me wants to make sure it's all down somewhere!), and maybe some inspiration for someone else who is going through the same thing. You'll have my honesty - I hope I'll have your support.

And so it begins.